D@iLy CrApS..

happy~

2004-09-29T02:55:00.000-07:00

todae, 28th Sep 2004...is mooncake festival, but i did not go out.i chatted with him tonight on the phone...we chat for abt 2 hrs like tat, tis is the longest time we have chatted after so long time ago...heehee so happy:)
After we hang up the phone, he sms mi a msg n it stated tat "hahaha dun think so much and worry i will not do anything wrong again liao ok hehehe so sleep early k....gd 9 muck muck........."
i will be really glad if he can do wat he promised n swear to mi..

now...

2004-09-28T16:14:00.000-07:00

todae, 27th Sep 2004...he called mi up early in the morning abt 8+ am, he told mi tat he is going for his MMI, after tat he will cum my hse....At 11+am, he told mi tat he is at bukit merah, now on the way to cum my hse liao....tis is the first time tat he cum my hse, after his check up...then when he reached my hse abt 12+pm, he slp n i wake him at 3+pm...then he went back to his camp again...Abt 6pm he called mi, n told mi tat he gt confinement for 2 weeks, until 16th of Oct then he can book out...i oso not true whether it is true anot, but i jus hope tat he wont betrayed mi n bluff mi anymore.....

troubled!

2004-09-27T01:42:00.000-07:00

todae, 25th Sep 2004...i went to his hse stay last night as he went to ms n pick mi up n we went to eat together....he last night cum my hse downstair n we tok things out....todae at night, we went to jurong point with his fren to catch a movie entitled new police story...after the show we went to jurong west coffeeshop to eat...
then i went to his hse, n i have a dispute with him over tat incident...actually alot of no. tat he dun noe wan n not stored inside his phonebk wan..alot of this kind of call...on the 26th sep 2004 happen at the same time...but he say tat he dun noe who...n i pick up n both call is a gals....i ask him to prove it to mi tat he dun noe them n prove it in front of mi, by calling them back..but he dun dare n shout at mi....n i leave his hse....in the evening, he went to find his fren to check abt wat they say to mi...then after they meet them...he cum n meet mi....n we tok things out n solve it...then i went his hse...he have promised one another sth,he oso promised mi he will not do tis again....i hope it is the true...then he send mi back home, n cum my hse n take alot of things to his camp..before he went to camp....

betrayed!!

2004-09-27T01:28:00.000-07:00

todae, 24th Sep 2004.....is a very sad n disappointed dae for mi....the sadest dae of all...as last night, my fren told mi tat one of my bf fren told him some secrets...n tat guy told mi wat did my bf fren say abt my bf having affairs behind my back...not jus only tis, he bring the malaysia gal,19yrs old tat he noe at jurong east canel wan, he bring her to one of the hotel in geylang n fuck her....i m crying.......somemore he told mi tat he dun have $. but yet he can do n spend this kind of $ behind mi....he spent $50 on the hotel room...n fuck her twice tat dae.....:( really sad
why he have to do tis to mi.....anyway, he oso admit liao....but i oso noe tat tis is not the first time he did the liao...gt one time is happen at tuas area, he pay $20 for the tailand gal n fuck her too....god tis is realli unfair to mi....after tis happen...he told mi tat he will change n he really regret it, as he now noe tat he really love mi wan....he told mi tis will neva happen again....i really dun noe...but one thing i noe is tat i will remember tis for life....i m realli hurt...

cried..

2004-08-28T11:37:00.000-07:00

todae, 28th Aug 2004...i quarrel with my mum...sob sob:(
then after tat ok liao...then my dear called mi n we chatted for a while...i realli miss him..so long neva see him liao, as he cannot cum out this week...he have to stay at the SAF ward..
i m waiting for him..as i miss him..hope to see him next weekend..so sian..

yoz

2004-08-27T22:10:00.000-07:00

todae, 27th Aug 2004...i jus nw meet my dear..i went to his hse in the evening, to take clothes for him..after tat his mum pass mi $ to take cab to alexandra hospital to visit him...then we chatted for abt an hour..i left at 8pm..then i went home liao..he call mi at 9.45pm, to see whether i reached home liao anot...btw, i had a dream last night...i dream tat i had baby..some more two or three sons at a same time, tat is wat the doctor told mi when he feel my stomach..then my dear say tat he wan to have three..heehee so funny~then i told tis to my dear jus nw..n he laugh..:)

how?

2004-08-26T01:27:00.000-07:00

todae, 25th Aug 2004...my dear call mi early in the noon...
at night, my primary sch fren cuming to my hse, n tell my mum abt NTI...they chat for abt an hour like tat..but i still dunno my mum agree to let mi join anot..but i tink she will...but nw my problems is which side should i join..my primary sch fren side or my bf frenz side...i oso dunno hw to deal with my bf, as i oso need helps from his frenz..then hw??
at night, my dear call mi, n we chatted for a while, then he tell mi tat he wan to go n slp liao..n we hang up..i dun have the guts to tell my bf tat i wan to join...
there is really alot of things for mi to tink n worry abt....:(

wat should i do?

2004-08-25T14:00:00.000-07:00

todae, 24th Aug 2004...my bf call mi early in the noon..but i was still slping, i gt pick up his call...in the evening, he call mi abt 7 times but i neva pick up, coz i was bathing..he gt call mi back again later n i gt ans his call...
at night, my mum is wrking OT...but we still planning to go out to eat, as i wanted to buy them dinner..we went out to eat at 9pm...after eating mi n my sis went to 7-11 to buy buns, n i pay for it too...we reached home at ard 10 plus..then i give my mum $100, my dad $10 n my sis $5...
wow i realli spent my $$ very fast...
my bf call mi later in the night, n we tis time chatted for quite long..then he told mi tat he dun have $ liao, as he tis cuming wednesday have to go for his MMI..i thought of transfering him $20..
i hope tat he can understand mi tat $ is very important n let mi join netwrk marketing..if i join n i earn some $, i will give him some when he needs it...but i dunno tat he will support mi anot..tomolo my fren will be cuming to my hse n tell my mum tat wat we r doin...i hope tat my mum n my bf will support mi...n i will put all my heart in tis job, as i wan to succeed n earn some cash...
nw, my bf realli changed alot liao..he will call mi wan..last time he wont bother abt mi, n not even a call from him...i dun no is tat he scared mi go n join netwrk marketing or wat..but he nowaday use to call my hse phone...last time where we nearly break off is partly becoz of our relationship n the netwrk marketing things..but nw he realli changed himself as i our relationship..so i oso dun wan to disappoint him...as i tink he dun wan mi to join, then he change himself wan..
wat should i do?both r important to mi..i dun wanna to lose any of them...

crying out...

2004-08-23T21:28:00.000-07:00

todae, 23th Aug 2004...my aunt call mi early tis morning at 10 plus..she say tat grandmother dun noe go where, n ask mi to cum back hm n see whether tat grandmother got cum to our hse anot...but i did not cum back...i noe it is my fault...
in the evening, heard tat my grandmother fall down..then in the hospital..after tat my uncle go to hospital n fetch my grandmother home..
In the evening, when i reached left my bf not long ago, he call mi using his hse no..then i ask him to send mi home...After tat he send mi home first, then he went to his sis shop to take money from his sis, as there is no one at home...after tat, he have to went back to his camp, n he say tat he will call mi tomolo afternoon...
when i reached home..i call to my grandmother hse n my uncle pick up the phone n scold mi...my mum oso scold mi...everyone puts the blame on mi...i m realli :( ... tinking back...everytime i went out to pray our pray to all the god, i will say tat i wan my grandmother n my family members to be save...i will always say tis...but in the end....
i realli feel like leaving tis hse...leaving tis place tat does not belongs to mi anymore...:(

happy~

2004-08-23T20:49:00.000-07:00

todae, 22th Aug 2004...i went out with my mum n sis to pray for my grandfather..after tat, we went to our grandmother hse..then my bf suddenly call mi in the evening, n tell mi he reached home liao, n tomolo early in the morning at 5am, have to reach camp...
At 8pm, when i jus bath cum out, my bf call mi n say tat he is cuming to my house to fetch mi..tis is the first time tat i sit on his new bike SP...he realli reach my house downstair early n wait for mi, but he neva scold mi..:) then, we went to his hse first...mi, my bf n his younger sis went to NTUC to buy food....
later in the night, mi n my bf meet his fren tok cock n eat...abt 2 plus in the morning, then we reached home...he help mi to squezze the juice on my left leg..he use a needle to pock n realli very pain...nearly, 3 plus am then we slp...n he have to wake up at 4am...

wondering..

2004-08-21T13:52:00.000-07:00

todae, 21th Aug 2004...he call mi jus nw in the mornin, but my dad pick up the phone n tell him tat i was slping...
nearly 12pm liao he call my hse again n i pick up the phone...n he tell mi tat he cant cum out todae as he got comfinement...mi realli unlucky lor sat then like tat....n he say tat he cant cum out todae, tomolo n next week from mon to fri...next sat then can cum out, but sun have to book in again...all tis i realli dun noe whether it is truth anot, as one thing is tat he usually will call my hp, but he call my hse..second is...he use someone hp to call mi, not the office phone..so far when he call mi he use the office phone, n he neva borrow hp from his camp mates before wan...i m wondering wat is he up to...

now...

2004-08-21T13:44:00.000-07:00

todae, 20th Aug 2004...he call mi tis morning but i was slping so i neva ans, n he call my hse n my sis wake mi up...he was very angry with mi, as i neva pick up my hp...he say he call n i dun wan to ans or neva ans, n he will not call again liao...
in the evening, he call mi n tell mi tat he reach hm liao...i say ok lor n we jus hang up the phone...after tat i went out with my mum n sis to jurong east to eat n shop...mi n my sis buy alot of things n we spent nearly $100, n our mum pay for it heehee~
when i reached home not long ago, he call mi again n tell mi tat he is goin out with his frenz...then he ask mi whether i want to go his hse later anot, as he sat n sun have to book in...then he say he will call mi, but if it is too late then he neva cum n fetch mi liao...in the end he neva cum n call mi up...but its okie...i use to it liao...i will take things lightly from nw onwards...

The End

2004-08-19T23:11:00.000-07:00

todae, 19th Aug 2004...is a very very depressed dae for mi, as i broke off with my bf...we broke off partly is becoz of NTI, n the most concern is tat i dun feel any love from him anymore...at first, i agree with him n told him tat i wont join, as he dun like mi to join NTI...but todae, i change my mind liao...is becoz our relationship has fated away... last night he neva call mi the whole night, but he rather call his fren than mi...:( i realli dun noe who m i to him...in his heart i m like a crown, a person who is very extra...when he needs my help then he will tink of mi..if not no..
he is realli a stubborn n selfish person, as he wont listen to wat i say n explained...
we meet up jus now n we quarrel, becoz of NTI n becoz of the position of mi in his heart..
our 3 yrs relationship jus end like tat...no matter wat i wan to explain he dun wan to listen, so i have no choice, n i say i go n join NTI n we break off lor...actually, i can dun wan to join NTI n be with him, i realli wan to be with him, but he is not showing any concern for mi, as he wont call mi..he still say tat we agree to meet on sat n sun onli, n mon to fri is his times with his frenz, but i neva say anything, i neva stop him from tat, but not even a call...a call oso no need...my heart realli break down...
he wont listen to mi on the phone, he keep hanging up so no choice n we break off..i realli tolerate alot liao...i told him tat i will not regret to break with him, but this is not the true...i realli love him in my heart...he dun noe:( he say ok lor i go n find someone beta, n he hang up..tat is the end of us...
3 yrs n i dun wan becoz of tis n we break off...but i realli dun feel any love from him liao...i m not important to him anymore anymore..:(

bored!

2004-08-18T23:09:00.000-07:00

todae, 18th Aug 2004...he call mi up tis mornin as to wake mi up..for an interview at NUH later on in the noon..
the interview goes on smoothly, althought i was abit nervous, due to 3 interviwers interview mi at the same time...i was suceed for the poistion, but in the end i dun wan as i dun have any interest in tat job...lots n lots of things to do at the same time...
after tat, i went shopping with my sis, n i brought myself some clothes...todae spent alot of $...
Todae, is oso mi n my bf 3rd yrs anniversary...but one thing is tat we neva spent 2gether...realli sian n sad abt tis...i was at home alone doin nth facing all the four walls....tinking.....
all this 3 yrs, there is alot of ups n downs...hope tat nth can separate us apart..

really confusing...

2004-08-18T01:30:00.000-07:00

todae, 17th Aug 2004..i went out with my fren n we meet at raffles place.i was so surprise tat the reason tat we met, is tat she was in NTI which is a network marketing company...then she ask mi to join..after hearing the thing, i realli feel like joining, but my bf dun let mi join...n he say tat if i join then we have to break off...:( so no choice lor...if i dun wanna let him noe oso cannot, coz alot of his fren is in tat company, n he will surely find out one dae..tat will be more worse..
my bf dun let mi join is becoz tat he dun wan mi to take $ from my mum, he tink tat tis kind of business is bluff ppl wan, where gt so gd thing in tis world, if gt his fren dun have to find another part time job liao..n he is oso wrry abt my transport fees, as i haven earn any $ n i have to spent on it to travel here n there...
actually, he oso gt his reasons...wat to do??
i was very angry tat he rather call his fren then mi...until 1am then he call mi..
his bike todae spoilt i m oso the last one to noe, almost all his fren noe....
i ask him who m i in his heart....n he say i m his gf...but he treat mi like tis:(
he call mi tat time, he said tat he was at home n abt to slp as he was very tired..
but in the end, i call his fren hp n he is still outside with his fren.....y he have to bluff mi??so sad:(

bike

2004-08-17T00:44:00.000-07:00

todae, 16th Aug 2004..is the first dae of the 7th month...
so sian, i stay at hm the whole dae..jus onli went out 4 a while with my sis, to my uncle hse to pray.our cousin send us hm, he drive very scary, dun noe hw he will pass wan heehee~, but very fun, as we joke abt...haha~
when my sis n mi reached our hse downstair, i feel like getting a drink from the vending machine..so my sis put the 90cents coin in, n the machine eat our $$...
we so poor no drinks n no $$back..we try to dig our $ using lots of methods, but fails..so give up lor..:( :(
my bf todae will get his bike, but still dun have the chance to meet him yet..i oso dun noe wat bike he brought..his fren told mi tat he brought SP bike, but he told mi tat he brought 125Z..so confusing, i tink he bluff mi...:( but no matter wat he buy, i will still hop on to his bike wan..
i pray tat it is not SP can liao..
hope tat i can see his bike soon n be the first one to sit on it heehee~~

:)

2004-08-15T23:19:00.000-07:00

todae, 15th Aug 2004...mi n my bf woke up very late in the noon..after tat we went out to eat 2gether..then we went back to his hse again, watch tv again..in the evening, we went to his hse downstair, to buy ice cream to eat..but i can onli see him eat, coz i have a stomach cramp..we sit at the downstair 4 a while, n we went up liao...we watch tv programs, but he watch his, n i watch mine...
At 9.15pm, he accompany mi to wait 4 the bus, as i m going home..then he went home..
i reached home liao, abt 10.30pm, he call my hp n see whether i reached home liao anot..;)
following tat, he told mi tat he wan to go n slp liao..as he tomolo have to go back to his camp early in the morning..he have no transport 4 tomolo, so have to wake up early..

saturday night..

2004-08-15T23:07:00.000-07:00

todae, 14th Aug 2004...is a :) dae, coz i meet my bf at night, n tis is the dae where mi n him is very peaceful, in terms of tat we neva quarrel. heehee~
i stay over at his hse..but very sian coz he sold away his bike, so we have no program for todae, a saturday night sia...then we watch tv programs 2gether, n after tat he slept eariler than mi...
At 3+ nearly 4am, when i was lying on the bed, my sis suddenly sms mi...wow she haven sleep sia...coz she cant sleep...

tired~

2004-08-13T20:59:00.000-07:00

todae, 13th Aug 2004...is a tired dae...when i wake up tis afternoon, i helped him to pack n clear his room...so dusty man...but luckily so ok, as he went out still got call mi n ask mi whether i wan to eat anything anot..heehee~got the heart!
Evening time, we take the same bus, as i m goin home n he is goin to meet his fren to play basketball..

boring...

2004-08-13T20:52:00.000-07:00

todae, 12th Aug 2004...mi at my bf hse doing nth..so bored..no one is at home, eat oso got problem...
In the evening, i meet my fren to eat, ant tat is my first meal of the dae..
My fren say tat i change alot, becum pale n skinny...but i dun tink so...coz i neva wrk liao, everydae doin nothing so tends to eat alot heehee~
At nite, me n my bf went to no1 market to eat...then he scold mi and say tat why i dun wanna wrk...then i very dulan, then i dun wanna tok to him...after tat, he cum n tok to mi nicely, as he wants to go out n meet his fren...so i stay at his hse doin nothing so boring..wait until ard 3am then he reach home...

Yeh!

2004-08-13T20:40:00.000-07:00

todae, 11th Aug 2004... tonight mi meeting my bf..we went malaysia together with one of his fren.Actually, not much activity...but still ok beta then rotting at home..
After tat, i went to his hse..

OMG!

2004-08-11T17:30:00.000-07:00

todae, 11th Aug 2004...yesterdae until nw still dun have any news of him..he did call hm but he neva even call mi...i realli dun noe lor...
nw the time is 16:54pm, but he nw finally call mi liao...so :) n luckily nothing happen to us...heehee~
But last night, i had a dream from my god...he was hinting mi not to be with him, as last time we will be 2gether is becoz tat i m attracted to him, but onli attracted to not love/like...
is tis the truth?shd i believe n leave him?i m really very confusing...as tis is the first time i had tis kind of dreams....
my god hint mi to leave him, as he dun luv mi....
i told my mum, n she tell mi to half believe, half dun believe...
i m still tinking of it............OMG!

sob~

2004-08-10T23:59:00.000-07:00

todae, 10th Aug 2004...is a sad n boring dae..so sian as i stay at home the whole dae, doing nothing.my bf neva call mi or msg mi the whole dae..dun noe wat happen to us, as last night we quarrel again...is tat the end of us??

Sigh!!

2004-08-10T15:17:00.000-07:00

todae 9th Aug 2004...its national day...
Although, todae is public holidae but not much program 4 mi...as i neva went out with him...
We quarrel again...He rather ask his frenz to tag along, with him n his family to eat, rather than ask mi along...so sad:(
He really change liao....Wat shd i do? Shd i continue tis relationship?
Luckily, my fren ask mi out tonight...We went to ktv pub, n tis is where i can relax myself...

VeX3d!

2004-08-08T23:58:00.000-07:00

todae, is 8th Aug 2004...and my mood is up n down..the sad part of it is, i quarrel with my bf, as we surpose to meet last night, but he went to jb wif his fren, until midnight 1 plus then he call mi..so i neva meet him...
We surpose to meet todae, but b4 meeting each other, we quarrel over the phone. After tat, we ok liao..then we went to eat, following tat we went to bugis together.Anyway, still consider as ok liao heehee~ i thought tat my dae will be brighten, but at night he rather go n meet his fren to eat, then we going to eat together...so :(

WhAt HaPpEn??

2004-08-07T17:10:00.000-07:00

todae, 7th Aug 2004... i m really :( , coz my nose bleed..it is really painful. nw my nose is out of shape n swollen, coz bleed until very jia luck, i even cry n shout 4 help..